When I was 17, my parents got divorced. This was a really hard time in my life, I hated seeing such brokenness in my family. It hurt. During that time I stopped talking for about a month, I had nothing to say, words just hurt to much. Before the divorce I would write songs to express how I was feeling. I had this little pink notebook that I would use to write my song in. It went everywhere with me, I never knew when a song would come to my heart. When I started to speak again, I no longer had a song to sing. Some times I would try and try, but nothing, no words would come. I was frustrated and pretty much gave up on this, maybe I had just out grown this. A few months ago I got a few lines of a song to sing to the Lord, I thought “this is it”, then nothing. I got nothing else. So that was it, I will never sing the songs of my heart again.
A few days ago I was leading my team in Guatemala, what an amazing group I had. Youth on fire for the Lord… there is nothing more exciting to me! During one of our evening sessions we talked about freedom, about how the Lord wants to take the backpack of junk that we keep adding to from us. He has never asked up to carry our junk, He has asked us to give that to Him. I had the team break up into small groups and share with one another some of the things they needed freedom from and then to have the others pray over that person. Everyone started breaking off, I did not feel lead to join any of these groups so I grabbed my guitar and started to strum some chords I know. I was looking up at the stars, hearing the groups praying over each other, there was just so much freedom happening there. I was over whelmed. And then it happened, I opened my mouth and a song of freedom came out. I was so amazed, after 7 years a freedom song came out of my mouth again.
I almost cant contain the excitement happening in my spirit right now, I want to run down the streets singing that I am free. I love to worship Jesus because He loves me. I never want to stop worshiping Jesus because He will never leave me. I never want to lose the Joy that He has blessed me with because He will never stop singing words of life over me. I am so blessed to get to have a relationship with the Lord. I am so blessed to have amazing people speak into my life. Jesus is so good. He wants you to experience freedom just as I did. Do you need freedom? Ask your daddy in Heaven for it. It is freely yours, so freely receive it. I pray that this blog finds you well and that your day will be blessed.
