Freedom to sing part 2

A few months ago I wrote a blog called freedom to sing (click here to read Freedom to sing). I was in Guatemala during the month of March leading a team and I felt the Lord tell me that He was going to revive my gift of music. I walked away from that trip excited because the Lord placed a few lines on my heart to sing. It was so wonderful but in my spirit I knew there would be more, I just did not know when. Most of the trips I lead this summer I did not play worship for, the groups had brought their own people, which was great. I kind of forgot about this promise the Lord has made me, when I got to Guatemala in July the Lord started showing me a lot of new things, and things I had forgotten about… like a promise He made to me a few months back. All the sudden was in this environment where worship was happening around me constantly, it was beautiful. I saw people singing out their own songs to the Lord and I wanted that so badly, I just wanted to connect with my Father even more.

A few weeks ago I was chosen to go to the Lake to house sit for the last nine days, at first I was really mad about it, I knew I would miss out on so much in Antigua. I also knew the temptation would be there to just watch movies the whole time. One of the days I was at the house alone with the dog, not quite sure of what I would do with my day when I remembered the new film Holy Spirit was premiering that day through Bethel church. I got online and started watching this documentary they made about The Holy Spirit. I was blown away by how the Holy Spirit was moving and I was watching it all happen. One of the best parts for me was seeing a worship leader go into the streets of India praising the Lord with his guitar and then they were invited into Hindu temples. I watched how this man worshiping the Lord and moving in The Spirit changed the atmosphere of a place, how heaven touched earth, and doors were open to share the Gospel. Wow! As I watch I just kept saying, “I want my worship to be that way”, I don’t want to play guitar and lead worship so people can see me, I want to lead so people can see the Father. There could be a curtain in front of me for all I care, I just want people to see the Father.

The next day was Sunday, so Kelsey ( she was at the lake with me at that time) and I decided to do church at the house since we did not know of any churches at that part of the Lake. Kelsey asked if I would lead us in worship that morning and I agreed. What happened next is hard to put into words, but here is the simple version. The Lord keeps His promises and that day, that beautiful sunday morning as I was leading songs I have always played but there was something different. The Holy Spirit came in the room and filled me with something I had never experienced before, a song of redemption, a song of my heart. As I sang I started to worship, not with the words that someone else had written by my word, the words of my heart. I was so excited I could have cried, I did not want to stop, I just wanted more, and more, and more. We then listen to a message by Heidi Baker, I was on my face before the Lord nearly the whole time. During that message I knew what the Lord was calling us to that day, Kelsey got the same word. We were to go to the Lake front and worship, hold a sign asking if people wanted prayer, to pray for anyone that asked, and to intercede and sing songs of freedom over His children, the children of Guatemala.

That day something shifted in me, the walls came down, The Holy Spirit flooded in, and true freedom came. I have not been able to stop worshiping, I love it. I have seen the Lord move in so many ways though worshiping my Daddy. This past week I lead a trip where the Lord use worship in so many ways. Stay tuned for the next blog about what the Lord did last week.